It feels like this is a long winter, locked down as we are, waiting for the days to lengthen and for a freedom that we hope will arrive along with spring and warmth. The seasons have become close to us. In our forced hibernation we are more attentive to the work of seasons than perhaps we have been before.
Seasons disarm us from our attempts to control. You can’t rush spring. There is only waiting. And they remind us that there are seasons to life that only waiting will bring to a close or open up. We live with the malaise of living too long in a culture that feels it can grab what it wants whenever it wants it, disconnected from the uncertainty of seasons.
Its the same I think in life of faith and in the life of the people of God. Sometimes there is only waiting and in that waiting trust. These are spiritual and communal winters which form us if we are minded to live in them and into which the stories of former communal winters play an important role. I have been living in 1 and 2 Peter this winter, listening to this letter as one to a scattered, persecuted minority whose hope was not in the next conference or church growth seminar, but in the promise of return of Christ. And I have been reading Belden Lane’s wonderful book ‘The Solace of Fierce Landscapes’ which opens up the long importance of wilderness and barrenness in the Christian tradition as places where real and deep spiritual growth happens. He quotes Gary Snyder: ‘Great insights have come to some people only after they have reached the point where they have nothing left’.
I wrote this poem as we moved into winter and as an awareness grew of the lengthening winter of Covid for society, for life, and for the church (which will surely emerge from this very different to how it went in). It is so tempting to feel there is some great thing we can do in this season to prepare for spring, or hurry it along. I suspect though we are being invited to wait and pray, trusting in the God of all seasons who invites us to be faithful in winter or in summer.
An early sloe Close by the smothered ruins of the parish church The sloes are swelling early, Full blue promises of autumn With their patina of frost, Portents of the age to come, The dark hours in the heart of winter Waiting for the earth to tilt its hinge And fall into another year. In all things seasons. In all things flux, Between time dormant, Time flushed and verdant. Sometimes the meadows ring with hymns From village folk walking back through cattled fields To cottages and hearth. Sometimes a gravestone drowning in bramble An east wall sinking into stands of hazel. All is not lost The sloe blooms early, The chiffchaff fall on the thickets round an old church gladly As the summer turns and winter feeding grounds Draw them southward, Creation groans and the Spirit Bends the grass, the trees, the sallow flax, Which fills the gloaming With the promise of another time, another dawn.